made a lot of decisions, too.
From now on, I only want to do things that will be good for me and ofcourse the people i care about.
I want to think about things before i actually do them, and I want to learn to say 'no' if that's better for me.
I DO NOT want to sound selfish, cos i am not,
but i feel like i should stand up for myself and not always do what others will please.
But this also includes doing things i'd rather not,
if they will turn out to be good to me, then i will do it.
no matter how much i will dislike doing it.
Cause you know, if i will take good care of much self, and make my own decisions,
i can only become abetter person.
And THAT's what i want.
BEcause people i love are having a hard time at the moment, and i so want to be there for them,
and support them.
I just need to be a stronger person.
And I tried it , and it felt good.
Like, as if i felt really proud of myself.
I told someone what i really thought instead of hiding my thoughts,
and I said it in a nice way,
and it felt really good.
Like i was talking about with one of my close friends:
'What if you'd get in a car accident or something? WOuld you be glad, with the way you lived?'
I dont think many people think about things like this.
I know i didnt.
But from now i really want to live life to the fullest.
Enjoy it, surround myself with only the people i love and care for, and be there for them as much as i can,
and just live.
OMFG I COULD BE A NEW DR PHIL FOR CRYING OUT LOUD XDDD
so after this long ramble, im gonna bore Tripp with my fan-ness.