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Monday, September 24th, 2007
September 24th, 2007 @ 3:30pm
Hell yeah; update.
Long time nothing to write about.

Today i stayed at home,
my mum let me,
cause i felt like crap
and started crying without an obvious reason.
So I slept for the whole morning
and i'm still kinda tired,
or more like, feeling weird.

I don't know why but I feel like
whatever I do, I fail too much at things.
I wish i had more willpower and wouldnt give up that quick.
I guess that's mostly just me,
but i hate it,
and I've got so many things left i want to do.

So i started trying to sort out stuff.
In three years I'll finish school,
and go to Fashion school
Meanwhile i wanna take Japanese classes.
SO after 4 year, i will finish fashion school aswell.
Then I want to work for a year,
to save up all the money,
and then, when that year's passed,
I wanna go to Japan,
for like a year,

So that's my plan.
I can't fail at that point,
cause it;s something wayy important for me.

I'm not beeing to hard onmyself here,
it's just how it is. ^^;

OH more nice news:
Only 28 days till Gazette. ♥
Rukeeeeeh~ ( /^o ^)/

Current Mood: contemplative
Monday, August 20th, 2007
August 20th, 2007 @ 6:56pm

Oh the fun i had xDDD

Current Mood: cold
Saturday, August 11th, 2007
August 11th, 2007 @ 11:27pm
Omg the wiseness xDD no jokes v__v
Today i've been thinking about a lot of things, and
made a lot of decisions, too.

From now on, I only want to do things that will be good for me and ofcourse the people i care about.
I want to think about things before i actually do them, and I want to learn to say 'no' if that's better for me.

I DO NOT want to sound selfish, cos i am not,
but i feel like i should stand up for myself and not always do what others will please.

But this also includes doing things i'd rather not,
if they will turn out to be good to me, then i will do it.
no matter how much i will dislike doing it.

Cause you know,  if i will take good care of much self, and make my own decisions,
i can only become abetter person.

And THAT's what i want.
BEcause people i love are having a hard time at the moment, and i so want to be there for them,
and support them.

I just need to be a stronger person.
And I tried it , and it felt good.
Like, as if i  felt really proud of myself.
I told someone what i really thought instead of hiding my thoughts,
and I said it in a nice way,
and it felt really good.

Like i was talking about with one of my close friends:
'What if you'd get in a car accident or something? WOuld you be glad, with the way you lived?'
I dont think many people think about things like this.
I know i didnt.
But from now i really want to live life to the fullest.
Enjoy it, surround myself with only the people i love and care for, and be there for them as much as i can,
and just live.


so after this long ramble, im gonna bore Tripp with my fan-ness.


Current Mood: determined
Thursday, August 9th, 2007
August 9th, 2007 @ 4:43pm
First entry.

My first post, so it should be about something interesting, right?
I'm sorry but my life is just not that interesting V_V

Today i heard that my mom is in the hospital, so I'm very worried if she will be alright.
Me and my sis will go home two days earlier than we were meaning to, so we can go visit mom.
I hope you will be alright mom,i love you <33333

So no japanese restaurant for us tomorrow, but i dont think i could enjoy it anyways now this happened.
But okay.

The last two weeks were really amazing, and Sarah & I got along just fine,
with ofcourse some little irritations,
but thats how it goes, right.
I will miss hanging out with eachother that much and beeing so close, doing the things we actually want to do, or just beeing lazy.

Watching korean drama's till 7am, and still not beeinh tired, the visits to the wok-it, and meeting a VISUAL KEI japanese guy (o.O his hair was the coolest ever), going shopping, trying to persuade Jin Li to not buy everything we thought was pretty or nice ("ikke kopen vor jou ja??"),  cycling together on one bike in the freaking dark, hardly moving forward, pretending to be english when people talk to you, walking through the streets with bunny ears on, practising Bi/Rain && super junior dances, acting like freaking retards in front of the webcam  and yeah i will even miss carrying the waayyyyyy too heavy grocerie bags.

Oh & how could i forgot our  current obsession:
Super Junior :D

Sarah hun, go find your Hankyung ;D

I had a GREAT time <3

OKAY enough nagging D:

Im gonna eat bami now, i can tell you, i never knew my sis could cook like she does ^__^

Saranghae yo,
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